That's when it hits me. I feel like it's any other weekend and then ... POW... I remember that I have pancreatic cancer. As any person who's been given a cancer diagnosis, I wish I had a crystal ball. I wish I could K-N-O-W that this will all be okay.
But what am I thinking??? Life is unknown for all of us every minute of the day. I've said this before and unfortunately still feel this way. I can say I have cancer, I understand I have cancer, but I just don't "Believe" I have cancer........just can't believe it. If I had that crystal ball, it sure would be easier to cross the bridge into "believing" it.
Two things have me feeling kind of glum. I worked on a special project the ENTIRE day and into the evening. It's something that I've wanted to do for years, but decided that now was the time to do it. The other thing is I watched the final episode of Desperate Housewives. Yeah, not a good thing to watch as Mrs. McCluskey listened to Johnny Mathias in her final minutes. What was I thinking?????
Okay, enough of a pity party Sharon Ann. Get on that horse and ride with your head held high. Seeing my hosta in full bloom back by my pond is a beautiful sight.
6 comments:
What a gorgeous garden! I love it. You enjoy this normal weekend and the long weekend to come. Is it important that you "believe" that you have cancer? I love that you don't. You are treating it. You are dealing with it. That's enough.
What a gorgeous garden! I'm sure you're going to find many moments of peace there! Enjoy every bit of normalcy that you can... It'll help your spirit as you fight that stupid tumor.
Sending prayers,
Rosemary
PS. That "Desperate Housewives" finale was quite the doozy!
Your garden is amazing (just like you!) and will give you strength and peaceful moments during the summer to come. I love that you are celebrating the small moments each and every day, like not having chemo/radiation over the weekend :)
XOXO
I love your garden and can't wait til you are all better and the Csizmadias invade your home.
Something that you can KNOW is that GOD has you in the palm of HIS hand and is taking care of you. And there are so many people praying for you and your family. It's like that shampoo commercial. I tell two people to pray for you and they tell to people and so on and so on. Prayer and Faith are two things that will get you through this along with lots of love and support from your family and friends. You can do this! I know you can! xoxo
Can't wait to here about what project you were working on. I have an idea!
Enjoy the three day weekend and take time to smell the roses.
Be strong!
Dear Sharon,
I believe you're allowed to feel a wide spectrum of emotions with all that you're experiencing. Your family and friends love you unconditionally; good days and bad days. Your authenticity is just one aspect of what draws people to you! Thank you for including us in your journey. I count it a privilege to be kept up-to-date with your life.
Praying that the Lord will supply you with what you need at the moment that you need it (whatever that may be.)
Yours Sincerely,
Darla
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