It seems that things have happened this year in an odd way. It make sense now but didn't then.
Let's talk about my school planner, the same type that I have used for 31 years in the past. Several months ago, the back fell off....just plain fell off. For someone who is a perfectionist, that didn't sit too well with me. Okay, I would just keep the back part in another binder and refer to it when I needed it. Little did I know that I would have to literally cut the last part of the year off my planner and send it to school for the substitute SLP to use from May on.
I was scheduled for an in-service on June 25 to learn the new IEP system for next year. It was perfect. My last radiation treatment would be on Friday, June 22. How perfect was that timing! Well, it dawned on me that being on FMLA would necessitate me to cancel that in-service. Little did I know that June 25 was going to be booked up. I went for radiation treatment today and guess what machine broke down? Mine! They told me that I would be absorbed into the schedule for the other machine. No, that didn't happen either. I was sent home without radiation. Little did I know that I needed the in-service date for my "now last treatment date" of June 25th. I can be a happy camper in many situations but that machine BETTER be fixed by tomorrow!
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Hi Sharon
It is incredibly frustrating when things do not go as planned, especially when the matter is this important. And dealing with the uncertainty must feel even worse - whether it be about a machine repair or a nurse's word choice or whatever else may come up. It has got to feel overwhelming and you have permission to be edgy and crabby and low and scared. But please also be strong and disciplined enough to allow your mind to let go of all that and make the firm choice to believe that all will be well and rest there even if just for a moment. Faith over doubt. Pick to have faith. I can see from your blog you have hope, and tons of love. Now you need a good dose of faith, the gritty kind that kicks in when things get really tough, when things don't seem to happen quickly enough or how we expect them to. Hang in there! You can do this. You ARE doing this!
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